Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself

Something that I hate about myself is that I often get down on myself because I compare myself to other girls that I know and I feel like I fall short of what I "should be". This might sound a little weird. Sometimes I look at myself and what I am doing and I feel like I don't compare very well with some of the girls that I know.

30 Days of Truth

i decided to take a leaf out of Nicole's book. She's doing what's called 30 days of honesty. Basically there are 30 things you have to honestly tell about yourself. Honesty is really the best policy and I really believe that you can learn about yourself by being honest not only about yourself but others as well. Wish me luck :)

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

November is Here

I can't believe it's already November. It seems like that just yesterday it was May and the summer was beginning. Now fall is practically on us and winter is coming fast on it's heels. It makes me sad and happy at the same time. I've missed the snow a little but I love the fall weather.

I haven't been up to much of anything too exciting. Mostly just working and living life. Halloween is done and over with. I'm not the biggest fan of the holiday so I wasn't that excited for it. Because the holiday fell on Sunday it was celebrated mostly on Friday. I went to Oktoberfest at my complex and a party my stake had. Today, my ward had a Halloween party a day late. It was a costume party and chili cook off with a trunk or treat. It was pretty fun. I dressed up as maid Marian and my friend, Ryley, was Robin Hood. It was pretty awesome.

I went on a date this last weekend for the first time in a while. It was a kinda short date but it was really fun and I had a really good time. We went to Wal Mart and bought stuff to make S'mores. He bought me a reeses while we were standing in line and it was really cute. We went back to his apartment and colored in coloring books and ate s'mores and then he walked me home. It was short but sweet and I had a lot of fun. :)

It's crazy to think that the holidays are just around the corner. Which means my birthday is just around the corner too!! Haha, not that I'm counting days or anything. Just saying that the year is fast coming to a close. Crazy times. It seems like as a get older that time goes by faster and faster.

Being Crafty

Every once in a while I get this urge to do something crafty. I want to make something and have it be cute. Last week I had one of these urges. So on my day off I decided I would make something. I went to Michaels with Ryley and collected some supplies. I took these...

and this...

and these...

and here they are all together...

and I turned it into this:

A beautiful fall wreath. Isn't it cute? The picture isn't that great so to do it justice you should stop by and see it at my apartment. I got the inspiration for it from Ryley's mom. Ryley's mom is the craftiest person ever. She has a craft blog that I read and a few posts back she made this cute wreath that I LOVE so I decided to satisfy my craft urge I would make a wreath. Mine is a little different then hers but I still love it and I think it gives a nice fall touch to my front door.

What you do you think of it?

Fall is Coming

Last Saturday when I was at work I received quite a surprise. I was taking my first call of the day at a bright an early of 8:00 am and I received an email from the manager of the department asking me to come to his office. My first thought was "oh no. What did I do?" There's no way I could possibly be in trouble because I knew for a fact that I had been doing my job the right way and doing good at my job. So after my phone call I went into coaching and went to his office. Larry looked at me and another girl that got the same email I had gotten and told us "you're not in trouble just go into the conference and wait with the others."

It turns out there were a few (10ish) chosen to be a part of a special team to help retention with their que. Retention tends to get really busy and so it takes a long time for them to answer phone calls which is not good. The reason those of us that were chosen were volunteered for this project was because we're really good at taking phone calls and were volunteered by our supervisors. So in essence I would be learning how to take retention calls but still take customer support calls. After training we would be working down stairs on the first floor. Let's just say that I was not excited about this at all. Yes there are bonuses for saving accounts but I really just didn't want to do it.

The rest of Saturday I did training and listened to some phone calls. I wasn't excited to go to work on Monday in the least. Which usually isn't the case. I go into work on Monday and I'm banished downstairs with everyone else that's doing this assignment with me. During my break I went upstairs to talk to Matson (my supervisor) because I hadn't talked to him all morning which usually doesn't happen. I sarcastically thanked him for hanging me out to dry. He told me that he had no idea that I was being taken off his team and doing this retention project until that morning. I told him that I really didn't want to do it but I'd stick it out and see how things are at the end of the week. He said if I wanted to he'd get things changed and bring me back upstairs. After my lunch break I came back inside and another of the supervisors was down there and she told me to read the post it that she'd brought me from Matson. It said:

Dear Briana,

Your awesome team lead is bringing you back upstairs. You have been given permission to rejoin the "fold"

Matson

Or something to that effect. Basically he didn't want me downstairs doing the retention thing because I'm good at what I was doing before. He talked to Larry and had me switched out for someone else. I was so excited. You have no idea. I was talking to one of the other supervisors (Tyler Anderson) after I came back up stairs and he said there's no way the team could lose me because I'm a really good rep :) I was so happy and relieved to not have to do that retention thing. I keep seeing people that knew I was down there and they ask me why I'm back upstairs. I just tell them that Matson wanted me up here and that's the end of that.

The only down side of this whole the is that it had already been changed so that I get mostly retention calls. So basically all week I haven't been getting as many calls as normal. Yesterday, during my coaching meeting I told Matson that it still wasn't fixed which is a problem because I was going 20-30 minutes with no calls which isn't normal during the week. He tried to fix it but couldn't and neither could any of the other supervisors. So I have to wait for Larry to change it. Near the end of my shift yesterday I went an hour and ten minutes without getting a call. I was so bored out of my mind. I had the chance to talk to Tyler for a few minutes because I wasn't taking any calls. He told me doodle to pass the time. Which I did for a little while. I finished reading Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. In the last hour and half that I was at work I took 1 phone call. So lame. Hopefully it will be changed today since I'm not working and tomorrow when I go to work everything will be normal again.

On the bright side, I found out yesterday that on my scorecard last week I got a B which is really good and my team of 10ish people was rated the second best team of people taking phone calls in the whole company :) That's a great feeling.

So most of this post has nothing to do with fall coming but mostly about what's going on at my work. Such is life, haha. I'm excited for the weather to start cooling down a little bit and for what comes with fall: fall colors, leaves changing, fall holidays, and sweaters!!! I love sweaters and I love getting to pull them on after a long time of not getting to wear them :) Another fun thing about fall is General Conference!!! I always get super excited for conference every fall and spring. The sad thing this time is that I have to work on Saturday so I can't watch any of the sessions on Saturday. I'll just have to get my fill on Sunday morning and afternoon.

Wow, this has been get a long one. I hope you're not too bored reading about the inner workings about what I've been doing lately. Have a great weekend!!!

Reflection

Two posts in one week? This must be a record for me or something, haha :)

I was just thinking about the difference between where I am now in life and, where I was a year ago. It's like night and day, black and white. The differences couldn't be any more further apart. Last year at this time I was just starting my last year of my undergraduate work. Now I'm working and not going to school. At this point I'm not really sure what direction my life is taking.

There are still some similarities between then and now. I still have great roommates (they're different then last year but still great), I still have lots of friends, & my boy situation is pretty much the same as it's been for a while (not dating anyone but want to). Here's the difference that I've found between last year and this year: I have found an inner happiness and from what people tell me it shows and radiates in my personality.

Recently, I've just been so happy with my life. I like where I'm at because I feel like I could go in a million different directions but I just have to choose which direction that is. I'm liking just working and not having to worry about a million other little things. I like being able to be a friend to people. A good friend of mine told me a month ago that he's seen me grow and change a lot over the summer. I think I've gone through some things that I have helped me learn to be happy with the circumstances that I find myself in.

Last week I was reading in 2 Nephi chapter 5 and I found a scripture that I have decided needs to be my motto in life. It's verse 27: "And it came to pass that we lived after the manner of happiness." Live after the manner of happiness!! That's the key.

I went through some hard things during the last year but I've finally learned that's okay. Sometimes that's what happens and you have to just get over it. Some circumstances require a good cry every now and then but for the most part life can be happy for the most part.

I'm just happy and I like it. I can think of a few things that would make me even happier but for now I'm content with my life being what it is. For right now I'm okay with just working and hanging out, and seeing that cute boy with the beautiful smile at work. That's enough for me. I will continue to be a happy person because Heavenly Father wants nothing more than for me to be happy and find joy in life.

Great Day, Self, Great Day

Today was just a good day. You know those days that are just pretty good? I had one of those today. There wasn't anything special that happened or anything particularly exciting. It was just a good day.

Today at work I had a pretty good day. There weren't any super angry people that I talked to. I sat next to a cute boy and got to talk to him throughout the day which was nice :) At my work my department is split up into teams and each team has a supervisor that's called a team lead. Last week I found out that my team lead is moving to a different department so all this week I haven't had a team lead. Today I found out that I was assigned to a new team and the cute boy I sat next to today is on my team. Oh, happy day. Haha, I'm really goofy sometimes but I like it.

Tonight I went to a bridal shower for my friend Brittany out in Pleasant Grove. The shower was kinda boring but the best part was the drive to and back. Weird, huh? I went with my friends Alisha, Naomi, Brigette, & Gretchin. Love those girls!! We got super lost on the way their and ended up being 45 minutes late. We ate food, talked to Brittany, & watched her open presents and then left. On the drive back we sang lots of songs at the top of our lungs and it was awesome! We also drove by the Mt Timp temple. It was so beautiful!

It was a great day and I love my life right now! I hope tomorrow will be just as great if not better :)