Jase Caryl Winegardner

My nephew officially made his debut into the world last Wednesday, January 19th, 2011 @ 10:08 am. His name is Jase Caryl Winegardner. He's 7 lbs 7 oz and 19.5 inches long. He's such a little dear. I love him and I think he's so precious. I got to go to the hospital the night he was born so he was about 6 hours old the first time I got to hold him. I can never quite put into words how I feel the first time I get to hold a niece or nephew. There just aren't words to describe it. Except for as much as I love them I know their parents love them even more. One of the cutest things is seeing his sister with him. Sammie loves her brother and when I first got to the hospital she took my hand and told me that I needed to come look at her baby brother. It was the cutest thing ever. Watching her hold him was really cute too. I love my family and I'm glad that I get to be so near them and watch them grow up :)

One of Those Days

You know those I-Hate-My-Life-Everyone-Leave-Me-Alone-I'm-Going-to-Rip-My-Hair-Out-Days? I had one of those days recently. It wasn't even that something big had happened. I just hated people that day. Saturday I wasn't very happy with life. I didn't want to be at work and I also didn't want to be at home either. I just was fed up with a lot of things. I didn't want to be at work because I didn't want to talk to people on the phone. I didn't want to be in my apartment because I didn't want to put up with a certain male that is always in my apartment. I was just a little fed up with him mostly because the previous night he said something to me that I felt he had no business telling me. I felt like he was rude and didn't take into account that what he said would upset me.

I know I'm being a girl. I don't need you to tell me that. Yes I'm dramatic. Yes I'm sometimes over the top and don't think things through. I was just feeling very emotional and high strung and I didn't want to deal with anything. I had to work though and so I was stuck there. Luckily though I didn't run into the nameless male at all that day. I did have to see him at church on Sunday though. I was still mad and so I didn't want to talk to him at all. Which I tried to avoid doing. He came up to me after Relief Society and tried to give me a hug but I was really unresponsive. Which is probably a very girl thing to do. -Sigh- I'm better now with everything that happened. Still a little miffed but I'll get over it. I always do.

I was just so mad and I really don't know why. I want a change and I'm tired of "me". I'm sure that makes zero sense. I like who I am but I'm tired of the me that people don't want to be around. I'm tired of being the "friend" to everyone. I like having friends but it gets to the point where you want to be the "more than friends" girl and not just the "always the friend" girl. I'm going to be 24 this year for crying out loud. Is it too much to ask for a little change in my life?

Harry Potter :)

Can I say that I LOVE Harry Potter? The movies are okay but I love reading the books. I just finished reading all 7 books for the second time through. And it just rekindled my love of the characters and the story. I can't wait for this summer when the second half of the Deathly Hollows comes out :) There were points in the Deathly Hollows that I cried. I'm such a girl, I know. Even though I know what is going to happen in the end there are parts that still make me cry.

There's this guy at my work that always makes fun of me when he would see me reading Harry Potter because he never really got into them ever and he says that he doesn't even really like the movies. I don't believe it because I think deep down inside everyone there is a Harry Potter fan. No matter who you are or what you do I'm pretty sure that there's a character in the series that everyone can relate to.

I will probably always love Harry Potter and will probably reread it more times in my life. It's one of those books that I can read over and over again and still love it!! One day I will own them all. Until that day comes I just have to rely on nice friends and family members that let me barrow them :)

First Post of 2011

So it's been quite a while since my last post. Sorry about that for those of you who actually read this. I don't think I've been super busy just been lazy, I think haha.

In December, I worked a lot so that I could take time off work and be home at Christmas. However, 2 weeks before Christmas I almost had a heart attack and I was super stressed. The execs at my job made some changes and in order to have any time off I would have had to used PTO or have other people cover my shifts. The problem was that I only had enough PTO for 3 days of work. One day I was out Christmas shopping and I was coming home and I was crying like I haven't cried in a long time. I was so upset because I didn't think I was going to get to go home for Christmas which really made me upset because I volunteered to work on Thanksgiving so that I could go home at Christmas. Over the next few days I calmed down because my supervisor helped me work somethings out. I was using my PTO for Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday of the week of Christmas and I just needed to get people to work for me on Monday and Saturday. I ended up getting all of Monday covered but not Saturday. But my supervisor was nice enough to just make my schedule "go away" for that day. I ended up getting to go home on the 18th and I came back to Provo on the 27th. It was a long time to be gone but I'm glad that I was able to spend some time with my family.

This year for New Years Eve I actually got to spend it with my friends which I was excited for because the last few ones I've been with my family and they have been kinda boring. The week of New Years Eve I worked some overtime to try and make up some of the hours at work that I had missed the previous week. I also finished Baby J's quilt (my unborn nephew). I had to work on New Years Eve but I got holiday pay and I got sent home an hourish early. So that was a nice treat. I went out to eat at Tucanos for the first time on New Years Eve with Logan, Ryley, Austin, Aaron, Zoraya, Jenny, and Elias. So good!!! I loved all the different kinds of meet. And it was nice that I got a 10% discount. Aaron was having a mocktail party at his place so I hung out there and then went to the Provo Towne Centre to watch fireworks go off at midnight. it was so cool! We were close enough that we could actually feel the vibrations of the fireworks. I've never been that close to where fireworks were being shot off before. After the fireworks I played some games with some more people and then had a sleep over at Alisha's apartment. Probably not the smartest idea because I had to work the next day and I was up until 3 am and I woke up the next morning at 7 am. Haha, oh well. That's life. New Years Eve only comes around once a year afterall.

Changes are coming for me. I've decided that come April I'm going to move to a different complex. It's time for a change. Not sure where I'm going yet but somewhere different. Maybe a little nicer, little more pricey. We'll see. Something that is also changing is my work schedule. As of Monday I am no working 12 pm-9 pm rather than 8 am -5 pm. I'm not really excited about it but you do what you gotta do to get paid. Because of my schedule I can't go to stake institute anymore so I registered for an institute at the Orem Institute of Religion. I'm going to be taking Pearl of Great Price and I'm super excited about it. I'm missing the first week of class because of work this week but hopefully it will work out okay.

I've made a few goals for 2011:

1. Read the New Testament since that's what is being studied in Sunday school
2. Regular scripture study and temple attendance
3. Learn not to be jealous
4. Be happy
5. Find joy in the journey